David Matthew Brown
March 9, 2010
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This man is extraordinary. He has such brilliance on Peace and emotions. He reminded me I have a voice and I matter and so do you. He asks us to see, What are we defending? That’s what’s keep us from Peace. Have a listen.
Dripping…
March 3, 2010
Dear dripping with Divinity friend,
40 yrs & dripping…
Oh yes… dripping! I danced in NYC
on my 40th BDay and made a choice.
I could either show off, shut down as
many people were watching my moves,
or sink into my pelvis and be a
channel for the Divine Feminine
surging and pulsing through my womb
to the beat of the music, as a gift
of Beauty for all, in bliss.
I chose the latter. One woman commented
that her and her husband couldn’t take
their eyes off me because I was so sexy,
yet she didn’t feel one ounce of
jealousy. That’s because I CHOSE to
dance for the Divine Masculine, not
her husband.
It worked.
I thought it was him but it was me….
March 1, 2010
Dear yummy like an eggnog latte friend,
I thought it was him but it was me…
OK. I’m dating this new man. I was feeling
very crunchy, pissed off by his lack of
being impeccably present, grounded
or thinking positively. Grrrrr….
I was going through my normal reasoning
of why this one won’t work either. I was
NOT doing my feminine practices, not
feeling my feelings, not telling the truth
with kindness and honesty… I was pushing
him away and being a bitch, CONVINCED it
was him.
Then, bless him, he suggested we go for a
vigorous hike to get the juices flowing,
energy moving. I could feel the anger in me
welling up, all prickly from the inside out,
wanting to SCREAM!
We got back to my place and began to talk.
I could feel under the anger was a huge
welling up of tears and I took a breath
and decided to show him my fears. I told
him to please only say ‘Thank you’ to
everything I said, just hear me please.
Then I sobbed and sobbed about how scared
I was to let a man support me, hold me,
care for me, protect me, be there for me,
let me rest and finally truly completely
exhale. I shared that I was so terrified
to open and risk being let down, risk being
taken advantage of, risk being used or
abandoned.
All this sorrow from my childhood came up
and I could see that all my exhaustion has
come from keeping it together and doing
it all myself. This wasn’t just with men,
this was with God. I was even afraid that
God would ultimately forget about me.
What was beautiful was that he just GOT me.
He followed my request to just say thank you.
When I was ready I let him hold me. It was
not him. It was me. The sweet little scared
girl inside me was trying to protect me from
getting hurt. By honoring her fears, feeling
those fears, sharing those fears, the little
girl felt heard and validated and now the big
Allana could see clearly from a place of deep
wisdom and gentle strength.
Then I made us an egg breakfast bagel for dinner,
we went to Charu’s Puja (a first for him. He was
nervous then told me it was the most beautiful
couple’s practice he’d ever done) and now he’s
taking me to Willie Nelson tomorrow. (I know,
don’t tell anyone. I love country).
Thank you for listening to my journey. I want
you to know that while I’m a kick ass coach,
I am humbled by my humanity and hope my
experiences can expand you and kiss the
place inside where you are scared.
From my heart to yours,
Be Sexy. Be Whole. Be YOU.
Deliciously yours, Allana
Goddess Portrait for my 40th!
January 4, 2010
Remember how I said I decided that since I’m turning 40 this January, it’s time to come out and play and be photographed in all my splendor?
Well I did it!
My friend Yamini, the photographer of many “over 40” TV and movie star goddesses such as Marla Maples, Mariel Hemingway, Linda Gray and others, is now offering her services at the reduced rate for a limited time. Our sitting included a wardrobe fitting, makeup and hair by star makeup artist, Alicia Barrera and choice of location.
See Yamini’s website: www.goddessportraits.com and call her at 949-494-0294 or email her at yamini7@msn.com.
She made me feel (and look I think!) like a Goddess! This is the most empowering experience AND results. This makes me feel like 40 is just the beginning. I wonder who my lucky man will be? tee hee…
Be Sexy. Be Whole. Be You.
Deliciously yours, Allana
Xmas Letter Photos of 2009
December 20, 2009
When I look back at the year we had a really good time.
Gabe is delicious and he expands me daily to be more patient, creative and truly INVITE him into his greatness.
He reminds me that I GET to be alive, GET to be a mom, GET to live fully… it’s my birthright… one day driving to school I said to him that Life Was Good.
He said, Mom, you know it’s so good that I don’t even have a word for it.
He’s right.
Sometimes the feeling of happiness for no reason takes me over… when Gabe sees me do that, he says, Mom? Happy Tears?
Yes, Happy. Tears.
LOVE to you all, Allana
