Lovely, lovely, lovely!
March 30, 2010
Dear fearlessly awesome friend!
No more pretending I’m scared…
when I’m not.
You know when things start
moving really fast and you’re
scared, yet when you really
check in, you’re not scared
at all. You just feel it’s
appropriate to say you’re
scared to fit in and look normal?
Yet when you really listen inside,
you’re honestly friggen’ excited,
passionate and ready to take on
the next challenge. Yet you almost
sabotage the flow and expansion
that wants to move through your
with this little nasty habit of
thinking it’s time to be
appropriately scared and
slow this puppy down.
Well, I’m done with pretending
I’m scared when I’m not. I mean there
are things that truly do scare me of
course.
Yet I’m noticing that when I’m
completely on my LIFE PATH and
living my dream, that it’s time
for me to admit that I’m truly delighted
with the mystery, in awe with the
wonder of the unknown, that on some
level, it turns me on to surrender
and allow Life to have it’s way
with me.
Maybe I make no sense at all,
but I want to invite you to
breathe into all the change and
momentum that might be up leveling
your life right now. I invite you to
slow down and listen, are you really
scared or are you ‘excited’ to be
living fully? See if you can shift
into high gear and trust you are still held.
KNOW I 100% BELIEVE YOU CAN DO IT!
Let the Universe use you for Good,
you amazing gift to the world!!
David Matthew Brown
March 9, 2010
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This man is extraordinary. He has such brilliance on Peace and emotions. He reminded me I have a voice and I matter and so do you. He asks us to see, What are we defending? That’s what’s keep us from Peace. Have a listen.
Dripping…
March 3, 2010
Dear dripping with Divinity friend,
40 yrs & dripping…
Oh yes… dripping! I danced in NYC
on my 40th BDay and made a choice.
I could either show off, shut down as
many people were watching my moves,
or sink into my pelvis and be a
channel for the Divine Feminine
surging and pulsing through my womb
to the beat of the music, as a gift
of Beauty for all, in bliss.
I chose the latter. One woman commented
that her and her husband couldn’t take
their eyes off me because I was so sexy,
yet she didn’t feel one ounce of
jealousy. That’s because I CHOSE to
dance for the Divine Masculine, not
her husband.
It worked.
I thought it was him but it was me….
March 1, 2010
Dear yummy like an eggnog latte friend,
I thought it was him but it was me…
OK. I’m dating this new man. I was feeling
very crunchy, pissed off by his lack of
being impeccably present, grounded
or thinking positively. Grrrrr….
I was going through my normal reasoning
of why this one won’t work either. I was
NOT doing my feminine practices, not
feeling my feelings, not telling the truth
with kindness and honesty… I was pushing
him away and being a bitch, CONVINCED it
was him.
Then, bless him, he suggested we go for a
vigorous hike to get the juices flowing,
energy moving. I could feel the anger in me
welling up, all prickly from the inside out,
wanting to SCREAM!
We got back to my place and began to talk.
I could feel under the anger was a huge
welling up of tears and I took a breath
and decided to show him my fears. I told
him to please only say ‘Thank you’ to
everything I said, just hear me please.
Then I sobbed and sobbed about how scared
I was to let a man support me, hold me,
care for me, protect me, be there for me,
let me rest and finally truly completely
exhale. I shared that I was so terrified
to open and risk being let down, risk being
taken advantage of, risk being used or
abandoned.
All this sorrow from my childhood came up
and I could see that all my exhaustion has
come from keeping it together and doing
it all myself. This wasn’t just with men,
this was with God. I was even afraid that
God would ultimately forget about me.
What was beautiful was that he just GOT me.
He followed my request to just say thank you.
When I was ready I let him hold me. It was
not him. It was me. The sweet little scared
girl inside me was trying to protect me from
getting hurt. By honoring her fears, feeling
those fears, sharing those fears, the little
girl felt heard and validated and now the big
Allana could see clearly from a place of deep
wisdom and gentle strength.
Then I made us an egg breakfast bagel for dinner,
we went to Charu’s Puja (a first for him. He was
nervous then told me it was the most beautiful
couple’s practice he’d ever done) and now he’s
taking me to Willie Nelson tomorrow. (I know,
don’t tell anyone. I love country).
Thank you for listening to my journey. I want
you to know that while I’m a kick ass coach,
I am humbled by my humanity and hope my
experiences can expand you and kiss the
place inside where you are scared.
From my heart to yours,
Be Sexy. Be Whole. Be YOU.
Deliciously yours, Allana
